Being hormonal again??

I've been feeling very emotional again lately.  Not too sure whether it's due to my hormones or it's just me full stop.  When people say our lives will definitely change when a new bundle of joy arrives well it is very true.  It is so true to the extend that it had affected me so much that nothing else in the world matters except for Aston.  Not even my husband matters to me anymore.

At times, I even felt that his presence is not important anymore as long as I have Aston with me.  I know this sounds very bad but it's true.  Some days especially weekends if we're all at home, I rather he is not at home and out with his mates because I felt that he's disrupting our daily routine.  Perhaps I'm just being too rigid and doesn't like it when the day doesn't go according to schedule.

Sadly, I really feel that I'm drifting away from my husband.  Here I am crying by myself composing this blog while my son is taking his nap.  How sad can my life be? I never expected an addition to the family will affect me this way.  The three of us should be a happy family but somehow I do not feel that happiness.  I see friends who have children and are still such loving couple but here I am thinking that my husband is not important.  Sometimes, I don't even feel like talking to him so I choose to hide in the room and sleep or just mingle with the ipad till I'm tired.  At times, I even wish that we don't sleep in the same room! Should I see a shrink? or perhaps maybe I should return to work and life will be better for me?

Why must I feel this way? Why can't I just be happy and contented that I'm so lucky I do not have to work and can spend time with my son while others doesn't have the opportunity to do so?

Another Achievement by Aston........

Two weeks ago, I started Aston on semi-solid food as advised by his paed.  I started off with rice cereal.  I am a lazy mother so I bought instant rice cereal instead of boiling porridge for him.  Well, the doctor did mentioned that the first time attempts they may just take just a few teaspoon or may not even take in any ! Anyway, went to Cold Storage and bought Earth's Best Organic Rice Cereal.

According to the packaging, it is USDA organic which means no growth hormones, antibiotics, steroids or potentially harmful pesticides or herbicides.  It is made with whole grains and iron fortified.  Most importantly, there's no added salt, sugar, flavours, colours or preservatives.

As advice, by the doctor we must introduce one food at a time and test it out for a few days just incase there's any allergy reaction.  I tested the rice cereal with milk/breastmilk for 4 days.  I was very excited more than Aston himself during the first feeding as I do not know what to expect.  It was a pity that I didn't manage to take any photos because I was feeding him alone and I couldn't handle holding my camera and feeding him at the same time.  Anyway, the first feed I made it rather watery to see how he reacts to being spoon fed.  The first spoonful I put it near him and he didn't know what to do so I touched his lips and left some cereal for him to taste.  Second spoon I tried to open his mouth with the spoon with a little bit of cereal.  Third spoon he's beginning to get the hang and start sucking out of the spoon.  It was so funny because when he sucks the cereals started flying everywhere and then he will give this big smile telling me that he's enjoying himself.  He managed to finish everything on the first trial itself which is just one tablespoon of rice cereal.  Second day he was still sucking out from the spoon but I tried to get him to open his mouth everytime the spoon is near him and tip the cereal into his mouth.  He didn't had any problems swallowing so I thicken the cereal slightly and he enjoy every bit of it! 

After the fourth day, I moved on to sweet potato puree.  I made the puree myself.  I bought some organic japanese sweet potato from Jusco and used the Thermomix to steam and puree it.  

Thermomix

All I had to do was to put the sweet potato into the steaming basket (the little basket in the picture) put in some water into the stainless steel pot/jug and steamed for 25minutes (until soft).  Then I poured the water away and put in the sweet potato into the stainless steel pot/jug and puree away! I then freeze them using ice-cube tray and once frozen I transfer it into ziplock bag for storage in the freezer.  So everytime, I just take out one or two cubes and warm it up using the bottle/food warmer.  

All geared up waiting for his food 

Yum Yum Yum!!

More more more!!

Yummy sweet potato I like!

Home made Sweet Potato Puree

Can't wait for the spoon to go in

Finished and satisfied!

As you can see, he no longer sucks from the spoon.  He will eagerly open his mouth waiting for the delicious sweet potato to be fed to him.  At this very moment, I've moved on to broccoli and it is very obvious that he doesn't enjoy it as much as the sweet potato.  Nevertheless, today is the 3rd day on broccoli and he manage to finish one cube which I'm very happy.  Will try to upload photos him eating broccoli if papa can help us take photos again.